I’ve often wondered and reflected on why I write and to be honest I’ve never been able to fully articulate any kind of rationale behind my urge to write. It’s not just any kind of writing that I am compelled to do but personal writing. Some may call it creative writing, but for me it is expelling my emotions from my mind onto paper.
The truth is, is that I have no idea what drives me to write, it’s something I just have to do, perhaps it’s therapy for me or a brain dump, take your pick. But what I do know is that I have no choice in the matter. I have to write, period. It’s my way of making sense of the world and my relationship to it; somehow my writing allows me to spiritually transcend reality based views to a more conceptual perception of the world, almost in a dream like state that is more malleable in my own mind.
Sometimes I write almost in a trance like state, where I am viewing myself writing and I am just a spectator of the process of creativity from mind to paper or in this case to a computer. Almost in a reverie type state, where thoughts flows and becomes transformed into reality onto a machine. The transference of mind to text is like the flow of water through a ravine, tossing and turning through all the nooks and crannies but still moving forward, sometimes delaying while looking for the easiest way through a conceptual struggle.
The love of writing or should I say the compulsion to writing has stayed with me throughout my whole life even though I wasn’t a writer in the sense that my career didn’t entail any form of writing in the traditional sense of the word. But looking back at my life and career in some shape or form it involved a framework of writing or the essence of the characteristics of writing
I started my career as a computer programmer, they call them developers these days, but there is a strong correlation between programming and writing. In both you write, both use grammar and syntax (although more complicated in programming). Both cases require analysis and logic especially when your writing is analytical in nature. So in hindsight I was already using some of my potential writing skills without even realizing.
As my career progressed I moved closer and closer to writing as a living, my next jump in career was to work as a business analyst, which essentially meant documenting proposed solutions for business users that could be translated into some form of solution, either a technology solution or a business solution. So a vast amount of my time was consumed with writing about my findings. At every step in my career I was unknowingly moving towards the innate nature of my own soul.
I think all of us has a tendency towards the generic core of our souls fingerprint, somehow what we do in life tries to align itself the best way it can to our souls characteristics until a realisation point comes when the compulsion of the souls yearning is too great to ignore and you completely absorb yourself in your souls purpose and achieve complete alignment and resonance. Once this alignment is complete only then can true peace be found, peace in your life, peace in your soul.
Have you ever thought about what your yearnings are or looked at where your life is taking you and what purpose it is driving you towards?
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